Brilliant children

After Allesya I have 3 more beautiful girls (my description of pretty may differ from other's). They are namely Ammelya (Adik), Attelya (Tya) & Addelyna (Dyna). These three are my most valuable treasures. They not only are pretty, they are also brilliant. As a mother, I'm proud of their wellbeing as well as in their study performances. When they were in primaries (Dyna still is) they did not show much of enthusiasm in studies. However, they always score an above average marks through out exams. No doubt they always need to be pushed (as most parents would do), but they did well though. Never have any one of them failed any subjects.

Dyna will be sitting for her UPSR this year and I'm pushing and praying hard for her to get straight A's (just like Tya last year). However, we'll see how will it be fated, while Adik is sitting for her PMR in October, will definitely wish her well in this important exam.

This year's mid year results has again made me a proud mother. Adik (in Form 3) & Tya (in Form 1) made an excellent achievement in their exams. According to PMR grading marks, Adik has gotten 7As 1B and Tya has gotten all 8As. Who in the world wouldn't feel great about this good news, isn't it? Its an awesome results and something for me and hubby to feel proud and happy with. We celebrated this good results by having dinner at a reasonable food outlet nearby..

Bravo my girls, we love you always...

My lil girl is now all grown up..!

Allesya is my first valuable jewel borned 18 years ago. She's now all grown up and had just enrolled into a college in Ipoh. I have one kind of a special feeling towards her. The difficulties I had when she was a baby were so unforgettable. She was delivered 3 weeks ahead of schedule (considerably pre-matured) therefore her internal organs are not quite functional as yet. Borned with only weighing 1.65kg, she suffered from a tiny whole in the heart and her intestine is not connected to her stomach so doctor decided to undertake an operation when she was just 2 days old. Poor my lil girl...

Now, after 18 years of those sleepless nites, terrifying nightmares, horrified experiences, uncountable days at the hospital, I can now feel relieved of her already being a grown up and mature lady. I'm proud of her, am proud of her progress as a normal child from born to now, however it will be very difficult for us to forget those heart-wrenching moments we had in order to grow her up.

Anyway, wishing my Allesya all the best in her current studies in the local university. May all her dreams come true, Mama & Papa will always pray for your best..we luv u.

Prospect in search

Again, this question kept coming back in my head. Should I or should I not look out for a better prospect out there. Having to hold on here makes me less productive, in fact more demotivated. The mix feeling I have right now is so unexpressed and I really wish this will end soon.

The need to earn a fix income from a secured job and at the same time my other intention to stay home (but doing something for a living) has been mixing around my head for quite a while already. I sometimes don't know what I want or intend to do next...gee, that's bad isn't it?

The other issue to think about when you hop job at this age is you get less energetic, less enthusiast and less productive. Thats becoz you are already at a comfort zone for long. You are also unsure of whether the other party can offer you the same remuneration package as what you get here..well, no harm in trying out the market tho..who knows??

Half year is almost gone...

Its coming to mid May now and June is approaching soon, that means half of this year will pass very soon, what have I achieved so far? nothing? oh no...!

Things are going so fast, time flies nowadays and I can't reach anything as yet..what will happen in the future? to my children? Have I got enough for them already? Those are still some ongoing plans I have for the children, in terms of their education plans, career motivation and towards the time they settled down, our responsibility as parents will not stop until the children have their own family..oh dear, that's quite a long way to go..

Really hope that we would all be able to live in a comfortably average lifestyle, not too lavish, resourceful,lively, happy, jovial and be fully sheltered with love all the way thru..

Dragging your feet to work....

I don't know why lately this feeling appears again, no matter how I try to avoid it, this feeling is always inside me on and off. Not so good sign, well..I've been wanting to retire early and stay home doing something good with a non-stop income flowing in, wah...am I too ambitious or what..?

Maybe the air around me is not so healthy anymore, people near me at workplace is not boosting morale anymore, they are just being complacent...arggh, how much I hope this feeling will end soon..

18 years of being a Mother...

Been married for 19 years this year and a mother for the past 18 years has made me a complete person. I've got four beautiful and adorable girls within 7 years of our marriage..really enjoyed the time of giving birth to them, see them growing up, raising them fairly among each other, try to accommodate everything that we can afford, owh..am just trying to be a perfect Mum.

Now, after 18 years, being away from my eldest, Allesya for 3 months (no doubt we go visit her every 2 weeks) has just made me a better understanding mother, more mellowed, being more rational, a little extra curious and I guess those are just some normal feelings a mother would have of their children (especially girls). I've gone thru some teenage sydrome problems from Allesya during her 16-17 yr old period, it was a real challenging and tough time for us to face through it, but Alhamdulillah, when she reaches end of 17 yrs old coming to her 18th, the way she thinks is absolute different, she changed into a matured lady with more adult-like thinking. She tables her education plan and always at ease when discussing her study plans with me and hubby..

Argh, my children are growing up..meaning my really aging, and I've got 3 more growing-up girls to deal with. I'm really wishing for an early retirement, hope it'll happen soon.

Vitamin "G" and Penyakit "M"

Today is the 5th of the month but there's still no sign of our Vitamin G coming in to our personal account. How to pay bills, loans and other fixed monthly commitment?? My children have been pushing to pay school bus fee, PIBG fees, UPSR program fees and what not..

Heard that its gonna be dragged till the 8th or 9th. Aiyo..die lor, makan roti lorr....

Knowing this vitamin G is not coming in any of these 2 days, so automatically the penyakit M will come. M means MALAS. Its really demotivating when you work so hard to earn the G, but the M keeps on coming when the G is late, in my case its not once or twice..it has been 6 or 7 times in a year..I guess soon, my mission to retire early will be accomplished at any time...!