Half year is almost gone...

Its coming to mid May now and June is approaching soon, that means half of this year will pass very soon, what have I achieved so far? nothing? oh no...!

Things are going so fast, time flies nowadays and I can't reach anything as yet..what will happen in the future? to my children? Have I got enough for them already? Those are still some ongoing plans I have for the children, in terms of their education plans, career motivation and towards the time they settled down, our responsibility as parents will not stop until the children have their own family..oh dear, that's quite a long way to go..

Really hope that we would all be able to live in a comfortably average lifestyle, not too lavish, resourceful,lively, happy, jovial and be fully sheltered with love all the way thru..

Dragging your feet to work....

I don't know why lately this feeling appears again, no matter how I try to avoid it, this feeling is always inside me on and off. Not so good sign, well..I've been wanting to retire early and stay home doing something good with a non-stop income flowing in, wah...am I too ambitious or what..?

Maybe the air around me is not so healthy anymore, people near me at workplace is not boosting morale anymore, they are just being complacent...arggh, how much I hope this feeling will end soon..

18 years of being a Mother...

Been married for 19 years this year and a mother for the past 18 years has made me a complete person. I've got four beautiful and adorable girls within 7 years of our marriage..really enjoyed the time of giving birth to them, see them growing up, raising them fairly among each other, try to accommodate everything that we can afford, owh..am just trying to be a perfect Mum.

Now, after 18 years, being away from my eldest, Allesya for 3 months (no doubt we go visit her every 2 weeks) has just made me a better understanding mother, more mellowed, being more rational, a little extra curious and I guess those are just some normal feelings a mother would have of their children (especially girls). I've gone thru some teenage sydrome problems from Allesya during her 16-17 yr old period, it was a real challenging and tough time for us to face through it, but Alhamdulillah, when she reaches end of 17 yrs old coming to her 18th, the way she thinks is absolute different, she changed into a matured lady with more adult-like thinking. She tables her education plan and always at ease when discussing her study plans with me and hubby..

Argh, my children are growing up..meaning my really aging, and I've got 3 more growing-up girls to deal with. I'm really wishing for an early retirement, hope it'll happen soon.

Vitamin "G" and Penyakit "M"

Today is the 5th of the month but there's still no sign of our Vitamin G coming in to our personal account. How to pay bills, loans and other fixed monthly commitment?? My children have been pushing to pay school bus fee, PIBG fees, UPSR program fees and what not..

Heard that its gonna be dragged till the 8th or 9th. Aiyo..die lor, makan roti lorr....

Knowing this vitamin G is not coming in any of these 2 days, so automatically the penyakit M will come. M means MALAS. Its really demotivating when you work so hard to earn the G, but the M keeps on coming when the G is late, in my case its not once or twice..it has been 6 or 7 times in a year..I guess soon, my mission to retire early will be accomplished at any time...!

Cardiac Care

Over the past 2 years, my cholesterol level has been above average. That worries me so much, after having a history with my late mother who suffered from artery blockage. She passed away even before any bypass ops can be done, well age factor is another issue. Now that my big brother is also suffering from artery blockage (no doubt on the mild level) but still that is actually a warning sign for us in the family especially a high level cholesterol person like me..!

So, to take proper measure I decided to go oats for breakfast daily now. No more curry puffs, fried mee hoon, half boil egg (maybe sometimes) roti canai and nasi lemak...(this is a big NO) or anything oily at all. At home I am trying to educate hubby and kids to take less sugar, less salt and less oily stuff. Only twice santan-based food in a week, the rest will be soupy stuff, rebus2 and steamed food. I hope they'll agree with me..knowing my children, seafood is a must have dish at least twice a week and for hubby (knowing him from N9 - so, lemak cili padi is a must).

Well, I need to start the ball rolling, otherwise mission can't be accomplished..!